Please, may I have some more?
There’s something quite awkward about asking for more… And that awkwardness often stops me from asking. Somehow the vision of a grubby little boy with an empty bowl swims into my mind. But before I find myself humming songs from Oliver…
To be clear, I’m not talking about material wealth here, although it may for many be quite reasonable to ask for more of that.. Today though, I’m thinking about other things I’d like more of: faith, wisdom, passion, courage, forgiveness, healing, ability to receive God’s love, love for others, a sense of the presence of God…
But for some reason I find coming to God and saying “please, I want more” really difficult. I feel I should stand back and let others go ahead of me. Asking for more when I have already received so much from God feels greedy. Worse than that it makes me feel as though I’m somehow not grateful enough for what I’ve already been given.
(Also, written on the wallpaper inside my head is a little sign that says “It’s not OK to ask for stuff” which applies in a million other situations, not just this one. – God and I are in the process of rubbing this -and some others-out, but that’s probably another postcard)
But for each of us, it is without question true that God has more for us in our relationship with Him. More understanding, more faith, more peace, more presence, more. And his pockets don’t hold a limited amount: If he gives to me it doesn’t mean that someone else will miss out, if he’s already given me some faith I don’t have to say “OK thank you that will do”. This isn’t a tea party at a little friend’s house my friends, you don’t have to smile a polite smile and say “thank you, that was lovely, I’m full up now”.
I wonder what you hear from God when you look at this postcard of the ocean. Every time I stand by the sea I think about this… I scoop up as much water as I can hold in my hands and I think “this is how much of God’s presence, power and peace I have experienced so far’… and then I look up at the sea.
The difference between the water I can hold in my hands and the contents of the mediterranean… and then the atlantic is beyond my ability to comprehend. It’s extraordinary to even to try to think about it.
That’s how much more there is to explore of God my friends, that’s how much more he has for you.
You just need to ask.
I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.
Ephesians 3:16-21 NIV
For your journal: What do you want to ask God for ‘more’ of? What stops you from asking?